Those words rang through my head as I slowly drifted out of a rare Sunday afternoon nap. Jae was cuddling me and Josh was ready for a snack but I didn’t want to move. I felt that way. My dream felt unfulfilled and my purpose was unrealized. It doesn’t matter how many times I have had to remind myself that my purpose was not just one great thing but a series of every day choices, I felt today as if I was a failure. At the same time I can hear the chanting of”dreams unfulfilled, purpose unrealised”, I could also hear the Holy Spirit reminding me of the plan, of the methodology of the dream that God has for all of us.
God had a dream that will take the lifetime and beyond for humanity to fulfill. He is patient and He made it so that we each get to play a part in bringing it to past. As jealous as He is, He is unselfish and couldn’t imagine doing this without our help.
It took Noah 120 years to build the Ark, a dream that was to save those willing to choose God. It will take the return of Christ for the fulfillment of the plan that went awry in the Garden of Eden. Jesus Christ chose to die, knowing He would rise again with the hope that many would choose to follow the path He set before us. He returned to heaven with a promise to come back but to send us His Spirit to comfort and teach those who believe.
Hebrews 11, the faith chapter talks about the men and women of faith who seemingly died without their dreams fulfilled. They accomplished great things and left marks that will never be erased but yet they left earth with much yet to be manifested. It is a wonder to live a life with dreams so big it takes generations upon generations to fulfill. Paul said their dreams would be fulfilled and their purpose would be realized through us, who believe that we have been called to complete the walk Abraham began centuries ago.
This moment causes me to be thankful and to see myself as part of the original plan of God. He chose me before the foundations of the world to be here at this time in history, this location, even these feelings. My thoughts seem so overwhelming to me but to God they are not. He understands and my feelings of inadequacy because it reminds me that I need Him and that the dreams and purpose inside of me cannot be accomplished without His help.
I am feeling my humanity today and I am grateful for the Spirit of God who rises up to my rescue and declares it is not over. Arise shine for thy light is come and the glory of the Lord is risen upon thee (Isaiah 60:1) My appointed time has come and the set time to favor me is here (Psalms 102:13).
“You may feel like dwelling on your limits or your fears. Don’t do it. A perfect prescription for a squandered, unfulfilled life is to accommodate self-defeating feelings while undercutting your finest, most productive ones.” (Author Unknown)
Be blessed today and hold on.